been there, done that

"This is the world," I screamed & ran into solitude. There I was greeted by so many people. Me, me, mE, ME, myself, I, we....gosh there were so many of them. Some guys were cool, some guys sucked, some were mean, some were scared, some were the pinnacle of courage, some were warm & compassionate, some were cold as steel, some were the epitome of empathy while still some others were sadist devils from the summit of imagination. All of them were there, every single type of person I had met in this world & imagined in my mind. Cool masks, they were. Depending on where I went or how I felt or who I met, I picked up the appropriate mask & went on stage. Tell you what, I had matching accessories that went with these masks.

Can't say I always performed well. Sometime I goofed, but I learned - how to grow into a better actor. I'm growing still, added a few more masks that I discovered in the attic last fall, searching & finding a lot more. Phew, so many. Wonder if I'll have enough time in this life to try them all before I go. Go where? I don't know. But everyone says that everbody has to go sometime so I'll go with the herd on this one for the time being.

It's so cool, playing these games, pretending to be good, bad, kind, unkind, loving, hating, important, insignificant, big, small..........sort of like being in this huge fair covering the entire universe & I go around trying all the games & rides that I think I will enjoy. But there's no guarantee. Went on this ride they called marriage. Kinda like a roller coaster. couldn't stand it, threw up, well sort of. Don't know if that's the nature of the ride, or the particular carriage that I got onto or if I am the kind that's prone to throw up in any such ride. Now each of these guys that I met in my solitude has his own opinion on why threw up. They're probably presenting me all the possibile 'explanations'of this very same situation. Don't know who to believe. Hey hold on, if 'I' am one of these guys, who's the one that makes the decision?

I'm probably gonna lose my mind one of these days. But what the heck, that's precisely what everyone's trying to do. Only some of them seem to chose who or to what object they want to lose it to. More or less like playing hide & seek. These are the people that have a ready answer to one of the absolutely stupid questions - "Where did you lose it?" Fuck you man, if I knew where then I wouldn't be saying 'lost'

But it's a cool game. you can pretend to be so sorrowful at the loss & try to beat Shahrukh Khan in Devdas. Then comes the Annual Filmfare award for 'Best actor'

Now I need another role. A villain this time , probably. yes, that would be challenging & maybe I'll win the next year's award for 'Best Supporting Actor'. Or a comedian?


"If a man is considered guilty for what goes on his mind you can give me the electric chair for all my future crimes. Yeah!" - Prince (Batman)

Well you can give it to every single soul on earth - including GOD, if there is such a thing that exists outside of all of them put together.